Back to reality for good this time

Things seem to be normal as normal can be right now. I have not missed taking any of my meds and I have been feeling great lately. I am going to court next week to deal with the charges but my lawyer is telling me that he believes that will be able to get me off of all charges because of my medical condition which is well documented. That is a big sigh of relief for me because I do not want to go to jail. I can only imagine what would happen in there if I missed some meds for whatever reason. There is no update on the potential lawsuit but I did hear that the footage of the cops beating the shit out of me also shows me flailing around like a madman swinging a metal chair and at them so I don't think my chances are very good that I will win any suit. My boss has been great but it does get annoying when someone is watching over your shoulder all the time to make sure you are staying on track. I mean I do appreciate it and all, and I know his heart is in the right place and he has the best of intentions but man he gets on my nerves sometimes.

Let's move on to some better news. I met this woman named Jackie. She is a nurse and she has a really big heart. She is like the most kind person I have ever met and I am thinking that she might be the exact kind of personality I need in my life right now. The truth is I have no idea what kind of woman is going to make me happy and satisfy me on every level but she is very different than most women I have been with so I am going to give it a shot and see what happens. There are a few other girls that I am exchanging messages with through the online dating site but none of them are as nice as Jackie. Ok, well there are 2 other girls that are hotter but I am not really making much headway with them and it is hard to gauge their level of interest in me. Anyways, I have been talking to Jackie a lot over msn and then eventually made the move to the phone. She has a really nice voice and I told her I was excited to get to know her better and meet up with her for dinner or something. She agreed to dinner and so I took her out to this awesome sushi place last saturday.

I decided I wasn't going to drink much, so I told her I would pick her up. I arrived at her place around 6:55 because we had planned to meet at 7pm and I sat there and waited. It seemed like I waited there for 30 minutes but it was only 15 minutes. As I sat there, I just kept getting more and more nervous until I felt almost sick to my stomach. I started to worry that maybe I was at the wrong address or that maybe she totally forgot about the date. I had a million things running through my mind and I know it's not wise to speculate but that is what I was doing and then finally she came out and I calmed right down. I got out of the car and went around and introduced myself and then opened the door for her all old fashioned style and shit - she loved it. We drove to the sushi place called Benihana. It is a place that specializes in Japanese style steak but they also have normal sushi so it is kind of like having the best of both worlds. The food was great and so was her company. She was so nice and polite, I felt like a bit of a savage around her. I kept wondering if she was a freaky perv in bed or not. Sometimes these quiet shy girls are freaky deaky in the sack. After dinner we piled into my car and I drove her home. I told her I had a great time and asked her if I could kiss her... she just giggled which I took as a yes and I leaned over and kissed her for a couple of minutes. We had a great time and I have been talking to her on the phone daily now. I am going to be getting together with her again this week.