online dating

Well it's Friday night and I would love to tell you all that I am going on some fabulous date tonight but that is not the case. I DO however have a date setup for Sunday so I am happy. That means I can enjoy tonight and Saturday doing guy stuff and having a merry old time as I go about it. Tonight I am going to get drunk out of my mind. I am not sure how or where I am going to make this goal happen but all that matters is that that is the end result

I am still deciding exactly what kind of booze I am going to consume and which buddies I am going to hang out with. Earlier I had this ridiculous idea of going out and getting hammered out of my mind totally by myself and going and doing all kinds of cool activities but then I decided against that idea because I couldn't think of anything to do and I also realized it might be handy to have a friend around if I pass out or can't walk or start a fight or get jumped by a bunch of reefer addicts! I don't want no problems with no reefer addicts! (that is a line from a movie in case you were wondering wtf is wrong with this guy)

Well I guess I am going to first eat a steak and then I am going to get drunk. Between now and then I will be here typing this shit to you guys and also chatting with my friends on IM about where and wtf we are going to do. The good thing about my circle of friends is that I have some guys who are with girlfriends, some who are married and some are single. Some of the single guys are not going on dates tonight lol. Maybe we should have poker night and get fucked up yo! Thing is that poker games are only fun if there is at least 8 people and it will be hard to get that many people together on such short notice especially on a Friday night. Poker night is the kind of thing that wives do let their husbands do so maybe it is doable.

Anyways on Sunday afternoon I am meeting this new girl named Iona for lunch at this sweet ass cafe here in Milwaukee that I read about GQ. I really hope the weather is ok because I hate it when the weather sucks. All I ask is that it is sunny outside. I don't care how cold it is, I just want to see some sunshine please. Weather gods, please shine down on me on Sunday. My damn allergies are bothering me and my mouth is itchy and I am sneezing now. Omg this itch is insane. Meh I have to go now and get some fresh air before I go into a sneezing fit.

Things don't seem to be working out with Noel. I took her out for dinner at a fancy restaurant and the whole date just seemed awkward as hell and I felt like she was distracted the entire time. I asked her if everything was ok and she just kept saying everything was fine and I was like ok. So we finished dinner and I was like where to next... and she was like I think I better go. I was like what's wrong and I put my arms around her. She didn't say much so I leaned in to try and kiss her and she shied away from me. I was like wtf is going on? She told me that her exboyfriend who had dumped her showed up at her house last night and told her it was the biggest mistake he had ever made in his life and he totally regretted it and he wanted her back. So she told me that she was going to give things another go and so she couldn't see me anymore. I said "well this is fucking bullshit" and I stormed off to my car and jut left her standing there in the parking lot thinking, let her find her own way home.

So moving on, the good thing is that I didn't put all my eggs in one basket. I was smart enough to continue relations with the other girls that I had been chatting with online on the dating site. There is 5 or 6 different girls that I have been exchanging messages with and they are all really cool. I feel like a real player or a real stud being able to talk to so many different girls at once. Also I think I learned a valuable lesson in terms of how much emotional commitment I want to give away to new girls. I have a hard time keeping things really casual. I have a tendency to let me emotions get the better of me and the next thing I know I am basically falling for these girls. I can not afford to allow myself to go down that road. If I do that, I may end up with the wrong girl and I may make the same mistake again and wind up unhappy in 3 years from now or something like that. I have a really hard time dealing with women and relationships etc. I had a thought the other day that it might be better if I just stayed single for the rest of my life and if I felt horny to just seek out the company of a prostitute. I wish I was capable of being that objective and being able to follow through on such a notion but I know deep down that I want someone to care and love me and I want to be able to return the favor. I am working right now on trying to setup dates with these various women.

I am starting to see a new girl. My search for good girls has turned out to be quite fruitful. When I say I am seeing this girl that means that I have moved from first sending her messages through the online dating site we both are members of to talking to her on msn live through instant messaging to actually meeting her in real life and going out on dates.

This doesn't mean that she is the only girl in my life. I am still talking to multiple girls on the online dating site and also I am talking to multiple girls on msn at one time. It is a lot of fun and I haven't enjoyed myself like this in years. I really wish I had known about internet dating sites a long time ago.

The girl I am seeing is named Noel and she is the cutest girl I have met so far. She has a really really attractive face. The kind of face I could just stare into for hours on end sigh. Anyways so far we have been on 2 dates and both of them have been awesome. The first time we went for coffee and just talked about stuff for like 2 hours. The second time we went to the movies and then back to her place where we fooled around for like 4 hours. We never had sex like as in actual intercourse but we did have some other fun and it was just a really good time and I think she is the kind of girl that I could fall for. I know I have only been out with her twice and I need to keep my options open and not rush into something right away but the more I learn about this girl the more I like. We have a lot of things in common and I dunno there is a really great unspoken chemistry between the 2 of us. I am going to be seeing her again this weekend. I am going to take her out to a fancy restaurant and we are going to have the proper nice first date we should have had.

As for the girls I am talking on the dating site and on msn, well so far they are just for amusement. They are like my garden of flower, my garden of girls and when I think one of them is ready, I am going to pluck it out and eat it muahahha ok well not literally but you get what I am saying. I am just courting them all and whenever one of them is ready to meet I will meet them and see what happens. I am not going to put all my eggs in one basket and get all hung up on the first girl I hook up with, because that just wouldn't be prudent and I wouldn't be learning from my mistakes now would I?

Well it is now 2010 and I am feeling better. No more bad dreams and no more dillusions of vampires. I am back on my meds now and I am feeling great. The voices are gone and the imaginary people are gone. I am back to the old me which feels good. When I don't take my meds I start to have issues. I realized I can't continue to talk to any of the girls I met on the online dating site before when I wasn't on my meds because I don't remember what crazy stuff I might have said to them and I don't want to look like an idiot or scare any females.

I have been going through the online dating site and I updated my profile because I had some weird stuff written in there which is why I was attracting weird girls. Now I have a much more conservative profile so I expect to get some decent responses from normal women who are looking for a relationship.

I am not really looking for a relationship like I said before. I am not in a rush to get into another relationship but that doesn't matter when it comes to online dating. You can't find any decent girls by putting up a profile that says you are looking for something casual. All the best girls online are looking for long term relationships so you have to play ball and go along with it. You have to say in your profile that you are looking to meet someone long term otherwise you don't get any replies. The females know this too which is why they put they are looking for a relationship too. Can you imagine how many messages they would get if they advertised that they just wanted casual encounters with random men?

It is not hard to pick out the good girls from the bad girls or the girls with issues I should say. I have gone through earlier today and found what I believe to be good girls and sent lots of messages. I expect to get some good replies back today tomorrow and the next day. I am anxious to start chatting with some new girls.

Hey it's Joe here. I guess it's time to make my first real post about dating. When I first joined the online dating site I was really worried I wasn't going to get any replies or inquiries and the whole thing not only would be a waste of time but my ego would be bruised and it would make it even harder to meet women. I am pleased to report that things have been going nothing but good since I joined the site. I have met 3 other women who are also divorced and they are all very hot and I would love to go out with any 3 of them. I have also been chatting with 3 other girls who are in their early 20's. I know they young and probably too young for me but it's good for my ego to get compliments from young twenty year old girls. One of them told me she wanted to chat with me on msn and show me some of her new bathing suits. I was like wtf is this for real... so I made an msn account and connected with her. I was sure that she would be much fatter and uglier than in her online profile and expected to regret the whole thing. Well guess what? She wasn't faking and she looked even better on webcam than she did in her pictures. She tried on and modeled about 6 different bathing suits for me. I have to admit it was pretty exciting if you know what mean cough cough. I wonder how many other guys she has done this too or lol was I the only one watching :S

I am trying to setup a dinner date with any of the 3 divorcees that I met because for starters just getting back out there I want a chill mature date with a mature women vs Jaegershots till 4am with some young shorty.